Sunday, July 20, 2008
Qi hanged up my call juz now...i dunno wat did i do wrongly. I juz asked him is he too tired? or is it tat he dun wan to see mi. Bcos de whole conversation, he did really looked at mi. Everyday when i skype wif him, all i wan is to take a gd look at him. He said im being selfish. Mayb he tinks tat i wanted him to play & joke wif mi in order fer mi to b happy. I noe he had been doing these fer veri long juz to make mi smile. But those r not wat i wanted. I juz wan to ve a gd chat wif him on our on goings everyday. I noe we cant possibly ve so mani things to tok to each other since we r juz carrying out our daily routine & he has been staying in his rm most of de time. But i dunno y...i juz enjoyed looking at him, even if we keep it silent. Cos whenever i looked at him, i will ve a sense of security & a motivation fer a new tml. I dunno y qi was so angry wif mi juz now...& tat's de biggest prob in mi. I realised tat im veri stupid at spotting at de main prob. Everytime when qi is angry wif mi, i dun even noe de reason behind it till he told mi himself. Juz now im only out of concern to ask him y he din buy more stuff so tat he dunnd to starve everytime. I dun wan him to starve everytime. But wat i got was, he said tat there is not like singapore where everything is so accessible. I noe it...but wat i feel is tat, de life there is like tat n hence one nd to adapt to it. Mayb i din live there so i wun understand. De onli thing i can say is tat, i always tink of him b4 anything. So there r mani things which he tinks is a worthless suggestion, it still comes frm de bottom of my heart. Mayb to him it doesnt seem to b anything special. Hope he wun b angry wif mi after awhile. Tink there is no hope tat i will see him today.
