Thursday, July 31, 2008
Din blog this few days cos nothing happening fer mi to write...juz dance,studies & work again. But today i planted my first ever plant. A sunflower dwarf named teddy bear. I didnt named it purposely as bear...but teddy bear is its real nick name. I was told tat sunflower ve veri short life span. But since i decided to plant it in de first place, i din intend to change. Hope tat one day they can blossom...^^
Monday, July 28, 2008
Met jos on sat fer a little catch up cos it's veri long since we last chat. After work, we walked down to PS fer our lunch at secret receipe. Something veri funny. There's a waiter..hmm...tink he's frm philippines. Actually we wanted to order grilled fish with lobster sauce. Den he keep saying "grilled fish normal"...den jos & I was like...qn marks all over our head. Den jos keep replying him...ya normal. After several tries, she gave up & asked mi to try to communicate with him. Den finally, i understood. He was saying "grilled fish NO MORE"...haha...we laughed but felt embarrassed oso. We ordered a salad, chicken chop & banana choc cake...*thumbs up fer the cake
After the meal, we went over to cathay to catch our 1520 movie. Fer the full 2+ hrs, i juz concentrated fully on de screen. A veri nice movie indeed. Really amazed at how those movie makers make out all those injuries & buildings collapsing look so real. *Applause fer all those who worked so hard behind de scenes.
Jos told mi she went to watch a Get Smart at vivo...hmm tink it's a midnight show...they went fer the gold class seats. Den when everything ended, she found out she was in de same cinema as fann wong & li ming shun...whoaaaa...*envy
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Today qi din turn up fer a chat...dunno where he go...been waiting since 11+ till now...mayb he went to slp earlier ba...as long as he is fine den everything's ok.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Full of emotion. Qi sent mi the following song once i signed in to msn.
I went on to search fer the lyrics and read thru it once. Every single word seems to b like a healing potion sinking into my wounded heart. For that moment, i really wanted to hug qi tightly and tell him in his eyes that i missed him lots. But i know i can't. Letting him know i miss him will onli make him tink of me, which is equivalent as torturing him. Since the last incident, we seldom chat. I realised that i am onli making things worst for him. I always think what i do is good for him but i was wrong. Accompanying and saying "i miss u" is just to aid myself and not him. I'm always flooding our conversation with the same question. Looking back, I really tink i am such a pain. If i can stand in his shoes earlier, maybe all this wouldn't happen. Sickness can be cured by medcine. Heart needs to be cured by time. I believe my heart will grow stronger and blossom like a sunflower by the time he sees me again.
*I like this song very much. But whenever i play it, tears will start rowing down my cheeks
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Class is cancelled again today, cos my lecturer is still sick. Haiz, hope she wun ask us to go back again on sun fer make up lesson. Every tues oso make mi bring those heavy books den last min inform us tat class is cancelled. Super angry but oso pity de lecturer. Tink she sick fer quite some time le. Today i did bring my own lunch. Cold noodles...salad & campbell soup. Though sounds delicious but i still dun ve de appetite. Cant finish de noodles, de salad sauce is not sweet enough & de campbell soup looks like milk (*scary) but de original taste is still there. Mayb tml can bring bread n dip de soup...haha...
Monday, July 21, 2008
Went fer my 2nd dance class juz now...quite enjoyed it but oso abit stress cos my balancing still not tat gd. Will try to practice everyday. Today's condition not veri gd...got indigestion again. The food dun seem to enter into my stomach...i tink it's stuck even b4 entering. Feel like vomitting but nothing came out...feeling really terrible now. Later still nd to study b4 going to class tml. Hope can tahan. Planned to bring cold noodle n salad to work tml...so later nd to go n cook de noodles. I tink i go rest awhile b4 i start anything.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Qi hanged up my call juz now...i dunno wat did i do wrongly. I juz asked him is he too tired? or is it tat he dun wan to see mi. Bcos de whole conversation, he did really looked at mi. Everyday when i skype wif him, all i wan is to take a gd look at him. He said im being selfish. Mayb he tinks tat i wanted him to play & joke wif mi in order fer mi to b happy. I noe he had been doing these fer veri long juz to make mi smile. But those r not wat i wanted. I juz wan to ve a gd chat wif him on our on goings everyday. I noe we cant possibly ve so mani things to tok to each other since we r juz carrying out our daily routine & he has been staying in his rm most of de time. But i dunno y...i juz enjoyed looking at him, even if we keep it silent. Cos whenever i looked at him, i will ve a sense of security & a motivation fer a new tml. I dunno y qi was so angry wif mi juz now...& tat's de biggest prob in mi. I realised tat im veri stupid at spotting at de main prob. Everytime when qi is angry wif mi, i dun even noe de reason behind it till he told mi himself. Juz now im only out of concern to ask him y he din buy more stuff so tat he dunnd to starve everytime. I dun wan him to starve everytime. But wat i got was, he said tat there is not like singapore where everything is so accessible. I noe it...but wat i feel is tat, de life there is like tat n hence one nd to adapt to it. Mayb i din live there so i wun understand. De onli thing i can say is tat, i always tink of him b4 anything. So there r mani things which he tinks is a worthless suggestion, it still comes frm de bottom of my heart. Mayb to him it doesnt seem to b anything special. Hope he wun b angry wif mi after awhile. Tink there is no hope tat i will see him today.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Tml is de 3rd wk qi left mi. Since de day he left, i've been keeping myself busy wif work, dance & study. Missed de days tat we spent going shopping and acc each other. Cos fer de last 7yrs, we've been seeing each other almost everyday. Still rem when he went to New Zealand fer his army outfield, I cant even contact him fer 3wks. All i can do is to check my email everyday, hoping to see a little msg frm him. Tat was onli fer 3wks. But this time rd is 1yr. Though we get to skype everyday, the time we can afford to spend toking is reducing. Cos he is spending time wif his friends n when we finally skype, i always get tired veri easily. Ytd he told mi he ve a Sept vacation break. Hope tat he can come back. Hmm...tink i better go n study...if not i will b tinking too much again...*misses
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Tired tired...audit lesson...actually this shld b de 2nd lesson le...but de lecturer cancelled our class cos she on MC...so poor mi nd to go back to sch on sun. den got a driving test date on 5 aug...left 2 wks..3rd time le...hope can pass...^^
Monday, July 14, 2008
Had my 1st jazz dance class today...heehee...been so long since i last danced. Finally a step more to my dream. Dear oso veri happy fer mi...cos i finally exercised. De class like onli 10+ ppl...den we do basic ballet warm up & stretching. Though onli 1 hr...but de warm up is tiring enough. I will try to do my warm up & stretching everyday...hope nxt lesson will b better. Long journey back hm...cos nd to take 960 den change 190 back to cck den 302 back hm. My journey took too long le...dear wasted his long distance phone call juz to make sure im safe...*touched
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Time really pass so fast...hmm...this wk nothing much happen. But i bought a Lacoste de polo-t, & 2 nike bottles fer dear. Hope he will like it. I oso registered fer a jazz class. Starting tml...heehee...i finally stepped out to do wat i really like. Hmm...but can't say too early cos i dun even noe if de class will turn out fun. So nxt wk onwards i will make myself tired. Cos Mon i ve my dance class. tues my audit lesson...den wkends blade again. so i ve wed-sat to rest...heehee...actually oso quite a lot of time to slack ar. But i hope i ve more self disciple to spend more time on my studies..dun wan to stay on de same spot all de time. Can see tat dear is getting used to perth le. Now he got friends visiting n going out tgt...glad to see him adapting well. Really hope to see him soon. Though we skype everyday, de longing feeling is still there. Dunno when can i hold his hand again...
Monday, July 7, 2008
Haha...finally got the chance to blade again. Tink my blade have been left untouched fer months already. Juz came back frm ecp...today's so busy...packed with programmes. Firstly, we went to service our car and went fer lunch. Hmm...we reached ecp at ard 1pm. It's so crowded...tat's y i prefer to blade in de nite..but no choice ar...cos i asked my parents to bring mi over...so i cant request much. My sis bought a pair of skate & guides...costed her rd $250...haha...can see her heart crack. My parents rented bicycles...though we din blade much...i still feel de tireness...cos too long nv exercise le...my body cant take it anymore. After spending most of our time at ecp, we headed to bedok fer dinner. The food there is nice & cheap...but too smoky. Later on, we went to Lot 1 to buy some stuff & finally...back to our sweet sweet home...Dun say le...brain shutting down le...nites...
*nites dear...miss u >.<
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Crowded at ah ma's hse today...cos all our family members including bfs attended this celebration. Buffet was called fer dinner...de food is simple & juz nice. Nicole is veri cute...esp her hairstyle really suits her. She got clothes fer most of her presents. Actually i was shocked, cos i thought mani of them will buy toys fer her. Hmm...hope de money i spent on her clothing is worth...cos it caused mi a bomb. As fer yong quan, we bought a bruan buffel wallet & a shuffle fer him. It has a simple outer lining and a dark blue leather. Then after de bday song...de normal mahjong session. I on de laptop & waited fer dear de whole day cos i scared he cant find mi...but in de end...im de one who cant find him. But nvm...cos i noe he's out wif his friends...gd to noe he ve friends to spend time wif. Rd 11+pm everything ended & we drove yong quan & 3rd aunt home...&...we went fer supper!!! Nice kuai zhap...heehee...warm warm stomach...gd to slp wif...but sinful if i did...tat's y im sitting here blogging at such a time.
*Waiting fer dear to finish playing cards wif his friends...
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Hmm...too tired & lazy to blog lately. Been busy wif work & shopping wif my sis, helping my parents to buy some stuffs. Tues nite i had a driving lesson...everything went fine. Den wed stayed at home & rot after work. Thurs...had my driving test. Failed again...2nd time liao...hope will b able to do better nxt time. Den today...as normal...came back straight frm work...come home shake leg. Haha...after writing all this...i found out 1 thing. Life without dear is so boring. Haiz. Tml going to ah ma's hse to celebrate yong quan & nicole's bday. Then...sun...hope can go blading...Tat's de end of my wk...
